After a long hiatus, I'm back to the blogging world. We have had some major changes in our lives lately. Mark, my husband, just graduated from NC State with a PhD in Chemical Engineering. He got a job related to his research in the Research Triangle and thanks to that, we bought our first house in Durham, NC.
Not to diminish Mark's accomplishments, but I have something big happening inside me as well. I guess this is more of a joint achievement but I carry the load. I'm pregnant again and this time there's two in there. TWINS! I'm already 18 weeks along and still a bit in shock. We really debated going for a third child, but we always wanted a bigger family than what we both grew up with (we each had one sibling). I said I was good for one more and then BAM, God gave us two.
I will never forget having a sonogram of my first pregnancy years ago. The first news I got was that we were having twins. A dream come true for both me and Mark. But the nurse's next words wrecked my world. There were no heartbeats. I didn't even realize you could miscarry without knowing it, but that's what happened to our first angel babies. And then it happened again with my second pregnancy. It truly feels like an amazing gift that we get another go at twins. I pray we meet these two this side of heaven.
In not too long, we could have four kids under the age of four (if the twins decide to come early). With both Evy and Levi I went through this spell of wondering what that meant for my life - my mental health and how I would fulfill a craving to create and do something that I could call my own. I've done photography for a while now, but I have a feeling I'll be home-bound for some time after the twins arrive. Hence, this blog.
It's going to be my creative escape. A visual and written storyboard of our lives which I can look back on after it passes by in a blur. Honestly, I never imagined I'd be here. Having four kids and loving every moment of being a mama.
I originally started blogging because I needed an outlet for my sadness. I was struggling with infertility and miscarriages and the community that blogging provided kept me alive during those times. I hope Mick & Co. keeps me alive in a different way. As much as I love being a mother, I know the solitude and lack of long-term perspective that can come in the early years of raising kiddos. I hope this keeps me in check a bit. I want to embrace every moment of these years. It is the biggest and most fulfilling adventure of our lives. A privilege I don't want to take for granted.
Thanks for checking out my new stomping grounds.